Monday, November 24, 2008

I'm Finally on Thanksgiving Break!

I am so excited :) you have no idea! I finally have a week to relax... HAHA! yeah right! I'm going to be doing homework non stop for the next week! So recently I've been really happy. I started talking to Kyle again. He is such a sweetheart and I like him a lot! He's best friends with my best friends boyfriend :) but like I said I'm really excited! I don't know exactly what will happen between us in the future but I hope it goes as good as it can get :) So besides that were getting ready for Thanksgiving with the family. The first one at our new house! And my mom is planning on making a pie! Haha my mom tried making a pie a long time ago for her parents and I guess grandpa didn't like it too much. Lets just say he scarred her for life and she hasn't made one since. So she's going to get past her fear and make a couple :) I'm so proud of her! Anyways my dogs are being little brats today... THEY WONT LEAVE ME ALONE!!! And sadie is so bored that shes throwing the ball to herself... :) haha its only funny when you actually see it :) OMG. so I just got my cheer pictures from Lifetouch. Fagholes forgot my buddy pictures. GOD DAMMIT! That just pisses me off and the fact that my pictures look like shit. Fuck this. I'm gunna go call their main office and demand I get them free of charge...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I Love Carolyn :)



Best friends forever seriously! I love her so much. Its been about 10-11 years already and were closer than ever. Ive moved three times away from arvada and were still BFF's :) I wouldnt be where I am today without her. I feel like I probably couldnt live without her either. She is one of my biggest support system in my life. So many memories and so many we still have to create. This friendship means the world to me. I have so much to say about her but little time. But she deserves a spot on my blog just for her. I LOVE YOU :)

My First BLOG! :)


Wow well lets just say my name is Shelby and I attend Frederick High School in Colorado. I feel like I am a little young to have a blog... but I'm sick of Myspace and Facebook and I think this will do just fine.


So today is Tuesday, November 18th, 2008. And I'll just start off like I would any other blog.


For one I know how it feels to have my heart ripped out and stompped on. And quite frankly, it sucks. So this guy decided to lead me on and play me, along with another girl I go to school with and supposedly others. He's just being really immature about it. The funny part about it is that he told me the other day that he chose her over me, and then she told him that she was done with him so he came back to me. So this other girl and I had class together today and we spent all Algebra 2 just texting him and bitching him out. Really mature of me, yeah I know! :) So I'm just over all of that. Obviously he doesn't regret anything because he keeps standing up for himself (which I am totally confused about since most guys wouldn't admit to something like he did) but if it makes him feel better about himself then its fine with me cuz I'm over it. :)The endless text messages are just pathetic. So I've decided to delete the entire thing and move on. I just hope that there are some decent guys out there in the world. It seems like I've gotten screwed over since my freshman year.


Most people didnt know me all that well before High School. And this is why I call people superficial: I NEVER cared about how I looked. I was happy and content with the person I was. I remember the exact moment when I did start to care though. I had gotten asked out by one of the popular boys and I was so excited! I couldn't even sleep that night. So I go to school the next day and he ignores me. After first period he had his friends come up to me to tell me that he wants to break up and that I'm fucking ugly... I was crushed. I went home early pretending I was sick. Oh and BTW there was a picture going around the school of me and someone drew all over it, great huh? So when I got home I cried for hours on end. Finally I gathered up all my feelings and thought things through. I always was content with how I looked but at the same time I had The nice clothes from A&F and Hollister (that I never wore and still had tags on them), I had contacts that I never wore, makeup, and hair stuff that I was too lazy to use. So after thinking long and hard about my situation I got ready the next morning and was finally confident in myself. Once inside the middle school building people couldn't stop looking at me, I thought there was tissue paper on my shoe or a stain on my face. Then I had that stupid boy come up to me and say, "Wow Shelby, you look great! We should get back together." Are you kidding me?! So thats why I say people are Superficial...


And that relates to my boy problem because I have been thrown around like a piece of garbage since I was a Freshman. I had my first real relationship this past summer with the most amazing guy. I cut it off though because I felt like I wasn't good enough for him. I never had time for him but were still good friends :) I wont elaborate on why I felt like a piece of garbage all these years but my point is that: Guys think they can get away with everything and anything. And most of them... are jerks. They use girls and think its actually kinda funny. Well its really not. So a note for those out there that are like this guy: Treat girls with respect they deserve it. You just look shady and stupid when you think you can be with multiple girls at a time.


So thats the end of my Blog about stupid boys. It actually made me feel a little better to talk some crap :) Everyone should have a blog... Its just great!