My First BLOG! :)

Wow well lets just say my name is Shelby and I attend Frederick High School in Colorado. I feel like I am a little young to have a blog... but I'm sick of Myspace and Facebook and I think this will do just fine.

So today is Tuesday, November 18th, 2008. And I'll just start off like I would any other blog.

For one I know how it feels to have my heart ripped out and stompped on. And quite frankly, it sucks. So this guy decided to lead me on and play me, along with another girl I go to school with and supposedly others. He's just being really immature about it. The funny part about it is that he told me the other day that he chose her over me, and then she told him that she was done with him so he came back to me. So this other girl and I had class together today and we spent all Algebra 2 just texting him and bitching him out. Really mature of me, yeah I know! :) So I'm just over all of that. Obviously he doesn't regret anything because he keeps standing up for himself (which I am totally confused about since most guys wouldn't admit to something like he did) but if it makes him feel better about himself then its fine with me cuz I'm over it. :)The endless text messages are just pathetic. So I've decided to delete the entire thing and move on. I just hope that there are some decent guys out there in the world. It seems like I've gotten screwed over since my freshman year.

Most people didnt know me all that well before High School. And this is why I call people superficial: I NEVER cared about how I looked. I was happy and content with the person I was. I remember the exact moment when I did start to care though. I had gotten asked out by one of the popular boys and I was so excited! I couldn't even sleep that night. So I go to school the next day and he ignores me. After first period he had his friends come up to me to tell me that he wants to break up and that I'm fucking ugly... I was crushed. I went home early pretending I was sick. Oh and BTW there was a picture going around the school of me and someone drew all over it, great huh? So when I got home I cried for hours on end. Finally I gathered up all my feelings and thought things through. I always was content with how I looked but at the same time I had The nice clothes from A&F and Hollister (that I never wore and still had tags on them), I had contacts that I never wore, makeup, and hair stuff that I was too lazy to use. So after thinking long and hard about my situation I got ready the next morning and was finally confident in myself. Once inside the middle school building people couldn't stop looking at me, I thought there was tissue paper on my shoe or a stain on my face. Then I had that stupid boy come up to me and say, "Wow Shelby, you look great! We should get back together." Are you kidding me?! So thats why I say people are Superficial...

And that relates to my boy problem because I have been thrown around like a piece of garbage since I was a Freshman. I had my first real relationship this past summer with the most amazing guy. I cut it off though because I felt like I wasn't good enough for him. I never had time for him but were still good friends :) I wont elaborate on why I felt like a piece of garbage all these years but my point is that: Guys think they can get away with everything and anything. And most of them... are jerks. They use girls and think its actually kinda funny. Well its really not. So a note for those out there that are like this guy: Treat girls with respect they deserve it. You just look shady and stupid when you think you can be with multiple girls at a time.

So thats the end of my Blog about stupid boys. It actually made me feel a little better to talk some crap :) Everyone should have a blog... Its just great!